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Well, I was off work today, and had a bunch of things to do... like plan a party for 100 in 5 weeks, clean house, go to the dentist, etc. So what did I do? Wrote fic for the first time in forever. Got the wild hair...

Just so you know, this is kind of a "stream of consciousness" thing - I didn't know where it was going when I started, and I just sort of pounded it out. I have a hard time re-reading what I've written, so it only had one small going over - there may be redundant words, tense changes, point-of-view changes - but I know myself well enough to know that if I spend a lot of time pouring over it, I'll just end up thinking it's shit and deleting it.

So here it is!

Out of Control 1 )
sgorny: (Default)
Well, I was off work today, and had a bunch of things to do... like plan a party for 100 in 5 weeks, clean house, go to the dentist, etc. So what did I do? Wrote fic for the first time in forever. Got the wild hair...

Just so you know, this is kind of a "stream of consciousness" thing - I didn't know where it was going when I started, and I just sort of pounded it out. I have a hard time re-reading what I've written, so it only had one small going over - there may be redundant words, tense changes, point-of-view changes - but I know myself well enough to know that if I spend a lot of time pouring over it, I'll just end up thinking it's shit and deleting it.

So here it is!

Out of Control 1 )
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Well, it finally happened.

I'm on my own.

I always felt like a ghost, drifting from place to place, being talked at instead of talked to...

Don't make trouble, keep your room clean, remember you're lucky to be here... the anthem of my childhood. That's the curse of foster care... they get paid to take care of you, so you are a commodity to them. As long as your ass is in the house, the cash comes in. Making waves is strongly discouraged, so I learned to get along from an early age.

I really don't remember my parents. My dad died before I was born, and my mom by the time I was three. I have a vague memory of loving arms, a sweet smell, and a feeling of contentment... and that's it. The rest of my life has been filled with an ever-changing parade of foster parents, some okay and some bad. Mostly bad...

And now I'm 18. The foster care system has deemed me able to take care of myself, but Christ! I'm still a kid, in high school even. But my "free ride" (such as it has been) has come to an end. My foster "father," such as he is, informed me today that I have until next week to get my shit together and either get out of his house or find a way to pay rent. If I can't support myself (and him), than I have to find another place to live. Well, fuck him. I don't need his bullshit or his roof, I can do it on my own. I'm sure I can find a job, somewhere...

****

I've combed through all the classified ads, but the only jobs I'm qualified for pay minimum wage, and I can't see being able to support myself on a fry cooks salary. I even applied for several of those low paying, dead end jobs... dish washer, bus boy, gas station attendant... only to be turned down for a lack of experience. If no one will hire me, how can I get any experience? There seems to be a conspiracy...

After my latest fiasco in the job market (how much experience is needed to wash cars, anyway?), I needed to get away from it all, to relax a bit and forget my troubles. I had heard from some of the slackers at school that there was this bar that seemed to not care much about ID's. They went there all the time, and got served and everything. So I figured, why not? I mean, what do I have to lose?

Since I didn't have a doctored ID, I decided to dress to the nines to make sure I got in the door. If I can make the doorman think that I'd love to blow him, I'm in. So I pulled on my tightest black jeans, a two sizes too small white T-shirt, and my old black leather jacket from Goodwill. I ran my fingers through my hair as I looked in the mirror, practicing my "fuck me" face. I was going to get in that door if it killed me! This was my night, I was gonna shine. Who knows, everything could change for me tonight.

As I ran out the door, my foster dad yelled after me. "What do you think, this is a hotel! You better be home before 1:00, or the door will be locked. Don't bother knocking... " his voice faded off into the distance. I've got to get out of here.

****

I arrived at the club at about 11:00. The line was non-existant, and I smiled brightly at the bouncer at the door, hoping he didn't ask for ID. I made sure to stare at his mouth, then drop my eyes to his basket, even though he was nothing special. The spark in his eye was all I needed to see.. I knew I was in.

"Hey, I get off at 2:00," he said under his breath, as he rubbed his dick. "Wanna hook up, baby?"

I'd have promised anything to get in the door... he'd have to find me later to take me up on it, and I figured I'd be long gone by then. "Sure, big boy," I answered throatily, throwing my sultriest smile at him. He stepped back and let me enter the club.

As I walked through the door, I felt 10 feet tall. I had managed to talk my way into a bar, and the rest of my life lay in front of me. Oh, yeah, I'd be fine on my own...

Glancing around casually at the clientele, I noticed that there seemed to be a large number of older guys, and a smaller group of young guys, some of whom seeemed even younger than me. Most of the younger guys were pretty thin and twinkie like, although a number of them seemed to be a bit worn down and rough around the edges. The older guys were all sharp glances and penetrating eyes, and something in their gaze unsettled me. While I felt like a hot young stud, their looks made me feel like raw meat... easily available raw meat. I felt naked under their gaze.

I noticed one of the rougher young ones... long messy dirty brown hair, strong jaw, ancient eyes who seemed to own the place. He sat with his back to the bar, legs spread wide, leaning back on his elbows as he laughed with his friends, two scruffy dark haired kids. As he chatted, he threw hot glances around the room, seeming to dare all present to approach him. I wished I could be as self confident as he was. Suddenly, his gaze was upon me, burning me. As he stared, I felt myself move toward him. Before I knew it, I found myself standing next to him at the bar.

"You new here?" he asked, scanning me from head to toe, stopping in all the right places.

"Yeah, this is my first time." I responded.

He laughed. "First time, huh? I don't even remember my first time..."

This drew laughs from his peanut gallery.

"Yeah, Hunter, you were just a baby..." Dark Hair #1 starts snidely.

"Shut the fuck up!" Hunter yells, silencing him with a glare. Quickly gathering his composure, he turns back to me.

"Sorry for the idiot over there," he says, casting a dismissing glance at Dark Haired #1. "And you would be..."

"Jason. My name is Jason."

*** tbc ***

Should I try more?
sgorny: (Default)
Well, it finally happened.

I'm on my own.

I always felt like a ghost, drifting from place to place, being talked at instead of talked to...

Don't make trouble, keep your room clean, remember you're lucky to be here... the anthem of my childhood. That's the curse of foster care... they get paid to take care of you, so you are a commodity to them. As long as your ass is in the house, the cash comes in. Making waves is strongly discouraged, so I learned to get along from an early age.

I really don't remember my parents. My dad died before I was born, and my mom by the time I was three. I have a vague memory of loving arms, a sweet smell, and a feeling of contentment... and that's it. The rest of my life has been filled with an ever-changing parade of foster parents, some okay and some bad. Mostly bad...

And now I'm 18. The foster care system has deemed me able to take care of myself, but Christ! I'm still a kid, in high school even. But my "free ride" (such as it has been) has come to an end. My foster "father," such as he is, informed me today that I have until next week to get my shit together and either get out of his house or find a way to pay rent. If I can't support myself (and him), than I have to find another place to live. Well, fuck him. I don't need his bullshit or his roof, I can do it on my own. I'm sure I can find a job, somewhere...

****

I've combed through all the classified ads, but the only jobs I'm qualified for pay minimum wage, and I can't see being able to support myself on a fry cooks salary. I even applied for several of those low paying, dead end jobs... dish washer, bus boy, gas station attendant... only to be turned down for a lack of experience. If no one will hire me, how can I get any experience? There seems to be a conspiracy...

After my latest fiasco in the job market (how much experience is needed to wash cars, anyway?), I needed to get away from it all, to relax a bit and forget my troubles. I had heard from some of the slackers at school that there was this bar that seemed to not care much about ID's. They went there all the time, and got served and everything. So I figured, why not? I mean, what do I have to lose?

Since I didn't have a doctored ID, I decided to dress to the nines to make sure I got in the door. If I can make the doorman think that I'd love to blow him, I'm in. So I pulled on my tightest black jeans, a two sizes too small white T-shirt, and my old black leather jacket from Goodwill. I ran my fingers through my hair as I looked in the mirror, practicing my "fuck me" face. I was going to get in that door if it killed me! This was my night, I was gonna shine. Who knows, everything could change for me tonight.

As I ran out the door, my foster dad yelled after me. "What do you think, this is a hotel! You better be home before 1:00, or the door will be locked. Don't bother knocking... " his voice faded off into the distance. I've got to get out of here.

****

I arrived at the club at about 11:00. The line was non-existant, and I smiled brightly at the bouncer at the door, hoping he didn't ask for ID. I made sure to stare at his mouth, then drop my eyes to his basket, even though he was nothing special. The spark in his eye was all I needed to see.. I knew I was in.

"Hey, I get off at 2:00," he said under his breath, as he rubbed his dick. "Wanna hook up, baby?"

I'd have promised anything to get in the door... he'd have to find me later to take me up on it, and I figured I'd be long gone by then. "Sure, big boy," I answered throatily, throwing my sultriest smile at him. He stepped back and let me enter the club.

As I walked through the door, I felt 10 feet tall. I had managed to talk my way into a bar, and the rest of my life lay in front of me. Oh, yeah, I'd be fine on my own...

Glancing around casually at the clientele, I noticed that there seemed to be a large number of older guys, and a smaller group of young guys, some of whom seeemed even younger than me. Most of the younger guys were pretty thin and twinkie like, although a number of them seemed to be a bit worn down and rough around the edges. The older guys were all sharp glances and penetrating eyes, and something in their gaze unsettled me. While I felt like a hot young stud, their looks made me feel like raw meat... easily available raw meat. I felt naked under their gaze.

I noticed one of the rougher young ones... long messy dirty brown hair, strong jaw, ancient eyes who seemed to own the place. He sat with his back to the bar, legs spread wide, leaning back on his elbows as he laughed with his friends, two scruffy dark haired kids. As he chatted, he threw hot glances around the room, seeming to dare all present to approach him. I wished I could be as self confident as he was. Suddenly, his gaze was upon me, burning me. As he stared, I felt myself move toward him. Before I knew it, I found myself standing next to him at the bar.

"You new here?" he asked, scanning me from head to toe, stopping in all the right places.

"Yeah, this is my first time." I responded.

He laughed. "First time, huh? I don't even remember my first time..."

This drew laughs from his peanut gallery.

"Yeah, Hunter, you were just a baby..." Dark Hair #1 starts snidely.

"Shut the fuck up!" Hunter yells, silencing him with a glare. Quickly gathering his composure, he turns back to me.

"Sorry for the idiot over there," he says, casting a dismissing glance at Dark Haired #1. "And you would be..."

"Jason. My name is Jason."

*** tbc ***

Should I try more?

Bad Dreams

Dec. 15th, 2003 09:57 pm
sgorny: (Default)
OK, this is a Hunter backstory fic with a possibility of becoming "squicky" - there may be rape or non-consentual elements, because we all know what a rotten life he lived with Rita before he ran away. This part has some implied potential squick, but nothing really. However, future, yet unplanned segments may. So be forewarned, and proceed with caution...


Read more... )


**** never wrote fic before... is this too twisted? Lori? *****

Bad Dreams

Dec. 15th, 2003 09:57 pm
sgorny: (Default)
OK, this is a Hunter backstory fic with a possibility of becoming "squicky" - there may be rape or non-consentual elements, because we all know what a rotten life he lived with Rita before he ran away. This part has some implied potential squick, but nothing really. However, future, yet unplanned segments may. So be forewarned, and proceed with caution...


Read more... )


**** never wrote fic before... is this too twisted? Lori? *****

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