They have me on 150 mcg of levothyroxine, which is pretty much the same thing. And I know one of the effects of your meds being a little off can be anxiety, shortness of breath, and muscle spasms... but it still freaks me out. I get that traditional 'panic reaction' of "maybe it's something else, maybe I'm going to die" even though I try not to. I know I could take some Ativan to get through it, but I hate to rely on anti-anxiety meds, and they always make me feel a little funny the next day - like I need them again.
And thanks for the boost about not sounding like Stevie forever. I met with a good friend for a little while after work yesterday, and was blaring my thumpa thumpa music in the car as I drove, and I kind of forgot myself and tried to sing. Bad idea. Couldn't do it, sounded horrid... and got really depressed. But I realize it's too soon, and until I can talk, I can't expect to sing. I just really hope I haven't lost it forever, because it was one of my great joys.
I told my mother that my goal is to be able to sing "Happy Birthday" to her - on November 6th. If I can't do it by then (3 months after surgery), than I'll have to deal with the fact that it probably isn't coming back.
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And thanks for the boost about not sounding like Stevie forever. I met with a good friend for a little while after work yesterday, and was blaring my thumpa thumpa music in the car as I drove, and I kind of forgot myself and tried to sing. Bad idea. Couldn't do it, sounded horrid... and got really depressed. But I realize it's too soon, and until I can talk, I can't expect to sing. I just really hope I haven't lost it forever, because it was one of my great joys.
I told my mother that my goal is to be able to sing "Happy Birthday" to her - on November 6th. If I can't do it by then (3 months after surgery), than I'll have to deal with the fact that it probably isn't coming back.
But I'll do my best not to worry until then.