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Oct. 4th, 2004 10:49 amOK, so I'm home, I'm bored... what a sad state of affairs!
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Please?
IM me at:
Yahoo: sgorny
MSN: smgorny
AIM: heresteddy
Please?
Oct. 4th, 2004
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Oct. 4th, 2004 02:58 pmI'm dumb.
I have a history of panic attacks, used to be bad, but no bad ones for over a year. Only 3-4 very short ones. So what did I do today?
I should have known that something was wrong. I mean, I felt really out of it when I got up, but thought I was just tired. So I made some coffee, and got online. Chatted with quite a few people. By about 11 am, I realized that I almost felt drunk - not the wooziness, but the jerkiness of vision. Thought that was pretty funny, at first. Realized I'd had like 5 cups of coffee (didn't keep track). Figured eating something would help, so I made a frozen dinner and ate it. Didn't seem to help.
Decided to lay on the couch and watch TV. After a while, I noticed that it seemed harder to breathe and my heart was racing. Felt kind of tight in the chest, too. Started thinking maybe I was having some kind of heart attack (even though no real pain) because the class I was in on Saturday mentioned that "silent" heart attacks often only make people feel tired. And of course, that line of thought just upped my anxiety levels.
Pretty soon, I was trying not to hyperventilate, and my heart rate was at 150 (that's sitting still). So I freaked & called the hubby. He works an hour away, but I needed someone to talk to. My hands were starting to tingle (both of them), and my palms were sweating. He told me to take an Ativan (anti-anxiety med). I haven't needed one in over a year. In fact, the last time I took one was the set visit (preventative). So I took one. That was 30 minutes ago, and while I feel less anxious, I still have this feeling of impending doom. I've felt like this before, but not for so long. And it makes me more anxious since I'm at home alone.
Pulse is at 120, and I feel... shit, I gotta lie down. I don't want to call 911 (never have) - but I don't know what to do.
If anything happens to me...![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
qafbliss gets all my memoribilia.
ETA: Well, it's 5:30 now, and I feel a lot better. Drank some water, managed to sleep. Although I felt off for the whole day, I finally feel normal again. Thank God!
Thanks for all the good wishes - they helped!
I have a history of panic attacks, used to be bad, but no bad ones for over a year. Only 3-4 very short ones. So what did I do today?
I should have known that something was wrong. I mean, I felt really out of it when I got up, but thought I was just tired. So I made some coffee, and got online. Chatted with quite a few people. By about 11 am, I realized that I almost felt drunk - not the wooziness, but the jerkiness of vision. Thought that was pretty funny, at first. Realized I'd had like 5 cups of coffee (didn't keep track). Figured eating something would help, so I made a frozen dinner and ate it. Didn't seem to help.
Decided to lay on the couch and watch TV. After a while, I noticed that it seemed harder to breathe and my heart was racing. Felt kind of tight in the chest, too. Started thinking maybe I was having some kind of heart attack (even though no real pain) because the class I was in on Saturday mentioned that "silent" heart attacks often only make people feel tired. And of course, that line of thought just upped my anxiety levels.
Pretty soon, I was trying not to hyperventilate, and my heart rate was at 150 (that's sitting still). So I freaked & called the hubby. He works an hour away, but I needed someone to talk to. My hands were starting to tingle (both of them), and my palms were sweating. He told me to take an Ativan (anti-anxiety med). I haven't needed one in over a year. In fact, the last time I took one was the set visit (preventative). So I took one. That was 30 minutes ago, and while I feel less anxious, I still have this feeling of impending doom. I've felt like this before, but not for so long. And it makes me more anxious since I'm at home alone.
Pulse is at 120, and I feel... shit, I gotta lie down. I don't want to call 911 (never have) - but I don't know what to do.
If anything happens to me...
qafbliss gets all my memoribilia.ETA: Well, it's 5:30 now, and I feel a lot better. Drank some water, managed to sleep. Although I felt off for the whole day, I finally feel normal again. Thank God!
Thanks for all the good wishes - they helped!
(no subject)
Oct. 4th, 2004 02:58 pmI'm dumb.
I have a history of panic attacks, used to be bad, but no bad ones for over a year. Only 3-4 very short ones. So what did I do today?
I should have known that something was wrong. I mean, I felt really out of it when I got up, but thought I was just tired. So I made some coffee, and got online. Chatted with quite a few people. By about 11 am, I realized that I almost felt drunk - not the wooziness, but the jerkiness of vision. Thought that was pretty funny, at first. Realized I'd had like 5 cups of coffee (didn't keep track). Figured eating something would help, so I made a frozen dinner and ate it. Didn't seem to help.
Decided to lay on the couch and watch TV. After a while, I noticed that it seemed harder to breathe and my heart was racing. Felt kind of tight in the chest, too. Started thinking maybe I was having some kind of heart attack (even though no real pain) because the class I was in on Saturday mentioned that "silent" heart attacks often only make people feel tired. And of course, that line of thought just upped my anxiety levels.
Pretty soon, I was trying not to hyperventilate, and my heart rate was at 150 (that's sitting still). So I freaked & called the hubby. He works an hour away, but I needed someone to talk to. My hands were starting to tingle (both of them), and my palms were sweating. He told me to take an Ativan (anti-anxiety med). I haven't needed one in over a year. In fact, the last time I took one was the set visit (preventative). So I took one. That was 30 minutes ago, and while I feel less anxious, I still have this feeling of impending doom. I've felt like this before, but not for so long. And it makes me more anxious since I'm at home alone.
Pulse is at 120, and I feel... shit, I gotta lie down. I don't want to call 911 (never have) - but I don't know what to do.
If anything happens to me...qafbliss gets all my memoribilia.
ETA: Well, it's 5:30 now, and I feel a lot better. Drank some water, managed to sleep. Although I felt off for the whole day, I finally feel normal again. Thank God!
Thanks for all the good wishes - they helped!
I have a history of panic attacks, used to be bad, but no bad ones for over a year. Only 3-4 very short ones. So what did I do today?
I should have known that something was wrong. I mean, I felt really out of it when I got up, but thought I was just tired. So I made some coffee, and got online. Chatted with quite a few people. By about 11 am, I realized that I almost felt drunk - not the wooziness, but the jerkiness of vision. Thought that was pretty funny, at first. Realized I'd had like 5 cups of coffee (didn't keep track). Figured eating something would help, so I made a frozen dinner and ate it. Didn't seem to help.
Decided to lay on the couch and watch TV. After a while, I noticed that it seemed harder to breathe and my heart was racing. Felt kind of tight in the chest, too. Started thinking maybe I was having some kind of heart attack (even though no real pain) because the class I was in on Saturday mentioned that "silent" heart attacks often only make people feel tired. And of course, that line of thought just upped my anxiety levels.
Pretty soon, I was trying not to hyperventilate, and my heart rate was at 150 (that's sitting still). So I freaked & called the hubby. He works an hour away, but I needed someone to talk to. My hands were starting to tingle (both of them), and my palms were sweating. He told me to take an Ativan (anti-anxiety med). I haven't needed one in over a year. In fact, the last time I took one was the set visit (preventative). So I took one. That was 30 minutes ago, and while I feel less anxious, I still have this feeling of impending doom. I've felt like this before, but not for so long. And it makes me more anxious since I'm at home alone.
Pulse is at 120, and I feel... shit, I gotta lie down. I don't want to call 911 (never have) - but I don't know what to do.
If anything happens to me...
qafbliss gets all my memoribilia.ETA: Well, it's 5:30 now, and I feel a lot better. Drank some water, managed to sleep. Although I felt off for the whole day, I finally feel normal again. Thank God!
Thanks for all the good wishes - they helped!
(no subject)
Oct. 4th, 2004 06:36 pmWell, things are looking up.
Got a call from an ad I'd placed looking for work. It's at a medical practice north of Seattle - they are looking for an associate/potential partner. I'm meeting with them tomorrow at noon.
I'm pretty excited. Hope I don't do anything to blow it! I sometimes say the wrong thing when I'm nervous or anxious, and it's gotten me into trouble before.
Wish me luck!
Andqafbliss - you know, if I get this, you'll probably get your wish, too! The law of odds & all. Especially since I would be unlikely to be able to take any time off, as they are booked out 2 weeks for each doctor.
Got a call from an ad I'd placed looking for work. It's at a medical practice north of Seattle - they are looking for an associate/potential partner. I'm meeting with them tomorrow at noon.
I'm pretty excited. Hope I don't do anything to blow it! I sometimes say the wrong thing when I'm nervous or anxious, and it's gotten me into trouble before.
Wish me luck!
And
qafbliss - you know, if I get this, you'll probably get your wish, too! The law of odds & all. Especially since I would be unlikely to be able to take any time off, as they are booked out 2 weeks for each doctor.(no subject)
Oct. 4th, 2004 06:36 pmWell, things are looking up.
Got a call from an ad I'd placed looking for work. It's at a medical practice north of Seattle - they are looking for an associate/potential partner. I'm meeting with them tomorrow at noon.
I'm pretty excited. Hope I don't do anything to blow it! I sometimes say the wrong thing when I'm nervous or anxious, and it's gotten me into trouble before.
Wish me luck!
Andqafbliss - you know, if I get this, you'll probably get your wish, too! The law of odds & all. Especially since I would be unlikely to be able to take any time off, as they are booked out 2 weeks for each doctor.
Got a call from an ad I'd placed looking for work. It's at a medical practice north of Seattle - they are looking for an associate/potential partner. I'm meeting with them tomorrow at noon.
I'm pretty excited. Hope I don't do anything to blow it! I sometimes say the wrong thing when I'm nervous or anxious, and it's gotten me into trouble before.
Wish me luck!
And
qafbliss - you know, if I get this, you'll probably get your wish, too! The law of odds & all. Especially since I would be unlikely to be able to take any time off, as they are booked out 2 weeks for each doctor.