sgorny | Update

I recently got an e-mail from

qafbliss, asking how I was doing. I thought I'd post my answer, in case anyone else was interested.

I've dived into work way too fast, but if I don't work, I don't get paid. No days off... in fact, I only have Aug 21st & 30th off between now and the end of August. So no rest for the wicked.

Voice gets tired at the end of the day, but is not painful. Less breathy (a little), but can't make the 'EEEE' sound. Can't yell, laugh, or sing. Joy. Have to use a lot more air to push sound out, so often have to breathe within sentences. I kinda sound like Stevie on "Malcolm in the Middle" - great picture, huh? *sad*

I have my up times & my down ones. I've cried myself to sleep several nights, and really haven't had a good nights rest in... probably since 2 days before surgery. I keep having stress dreams, and wake up almost as tired as when I went to bed. And to top that off, I've been having some anxiety-type attacks at bedtime again. I worry about 3 years ago returning (a horrid year of severe anxiety attacks, which led to other problems, like driving). I was over that when I came up for the set visit (Nov 2003), but I'd suffered terribly the year before from it.

I'm thinking it is probably the stress I'm under, the fact that I've had surgery, and that my body is trying to get used to artificial hormone, and the levels might not even be right, and the medicine has a half-life of like 8 days, so it can build up...

I have about another 2 weeks at least until I get a blood test to see where my thyroid levels are. The doc will adjust them accordingly. I hope to be on an even keel again soon, but it can't be soon enough.