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[sgorny]

Man, I'm having one of those days. You know, the kind where you just want to run away and hide, or get in your car and drive as far as you can on a tank of gas. And then buy more gas.

It's not really any one thing...

Perhaps it's the lack of sleep. The SO decided last night at 1:30 that it was time to wake me up and tell me all of my shortcomings. By wake me up, I mean poke me hard repeatedly in the back & arm in 4 different instances to make sure that I don't get any sleep.

The "problem"? In essence - I care more about the show, my computer, and my gadgets than him. I never f*cking do anything for him, and I lie to him about things like... what time I'll be home (this is when I misjudge and get home 20 minutes later than expected), what time I'll come to bed (I figure - if he's fallen asleep, and I stay up, what does it matter?)... and I can't think of anything else right now. And I spent last night not on QaF, but trying to update our mp3 library on the computer for both of us. But it still counts against me..

Also, he thinks he's having panic attacks, but he seems much too calm for that. He has had some things at work that he hasn't prepared for, and I think it's more anxiety related to that, but I could be wrong. I used to have panic attacks, and they seemed much more severe.

I occasionally woke him up in the early AM when I had one, because I felt like I was dying & wanted someone to be able to call the ambulance if needed. His words to me this early AM? "If I'm awake, than you will be, too." Sounds quite different from the reason I used to wake him up.

Well, I'm at work now, and get to argue with the boss tonight about last months bonus. He owes me $2K (by contract), and I know he is going to try to not pay it. He told me when he terminated our old contract that March was the last months bonus I'd get, but my contract states (in so many words) that "bonus accrued through the end of the contract period will be paid" as long as the Associate is not the one terminating the contract. And 30 days from the date of the termination letter was May 6th, so I get April's bonus. Of course, if I'd initiated the termination, than I wouldn't get bonus. But that didn't happen, so he is screwed. But I expect he will fight me on that.

I don't look forward to our discussion tonight. Because I will take him to small claims court for $2K. Or is that too big for small claims? Hopefully, I won't have to find out.

Of course, I'll probably have to quit here for that. And this could screw up our discussion of me buying the practice, but shit, I can't let him take me to the cleaners for this much. Especially since it's in my contract.

And then I get to go home and face the SO again. After last night, I really, really don't look forward to it.

Shit.


Sorry for the ramble, but I had to get it off my chest.

Comments

[altricial.livejournal.com]

Aw. Yeah this is tricky and sticky. 16 years, man. My longest relationship was 4 months, so all the power to you. I think he does need to look into the whole having life separate from you thing, or he's just going to stay resentful that you have one and he doesn't. :// Hope things work out okay soon!

[qafhappy.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much for the kind thoughts. I'm going to try to be positive about it, and give him more attention. Hopefully, that will let him cut me more slack.